Joy Inexpressible and full of Glory !!!!!

 

The way our year stated with Skunk Armageddon and Mollie cat passing away shouldn’t had surprised me that March brought with it COVID…. (inset Jaws theme here). 

 

Jeremy started spring break on March 13.  I show up for work on March 17 and was informed to get what I needed and was labeled Safer working from home.  I honestly in my mind thought this would last a few weeks to a month but then the world shut down and brakes were applied to life is exactly how I felt.  Jeremy’s school shut down, restaurants, church, only go out to get the essentials.  Then Jeremy’s summer camp got cancelled, so my summer vacation was cancelled.   I couldn’t visit families in the hospital and had to start serving families a different way.  I’m a social person so this was a TOUGH on me.  I watched it from my bedroom window and we lived life inside our house.  I am forever grateful that I could work from home and receive my full paycheck, all of Jeremy’s home health nurses & HTS remained healthy and worked.  I worked from home for 4 months, so when June 15 rolled around and it was time to return to the physical office I wanted to stay home… (what???)  I really did start to embrace the slow-down, started food prepping, eating healthier, cooking more, not eating out as much, even tried some vegan dishes but don’t get excited I LOVE meat too much to give that up.  The best change I made was when Jeremy goes to bed at 8, I have a quiet time where I can set and read my bible.    

 

Jeremy graduated High School and had a formal graduation on June 26.  Sapulpa Public schools did a great job and had an amazing firework display for the seniors.  Jeremy turned 21 on August 9, a day I have been dreading for years because it means major change in services for him.  I had to decide between keeping him on the In home Support Wavier or switching to the Medically Fragile Waiver.  It really wasn’t much of a decision just heart wrenching to me as a single mom.  Jeremy needs nursing for his medical care, but that meant he lost his HTS who was his social bridge into the community as well as my back up.  Jeremy has only had 1 UTI this entire year, he’s been extremely happy, healthy.  His repeat Upper GI, had me scared his stomach was still red & inflamed so I was afraid the biopsies might not be in our favor and he now has an issue with his stomach emptying.  We’ve made some changes to his eating and he’s doing really well.     

 

I am Marley the cat, best friend ever, that cat loves me, she is loads of fun and fits right in.   

 

I did this thing, “OFFICIALLY” paid off my house mortgage and grateful GOD blessed me with the resources to do that.  I started out a single mom 11 years ago with incurred debt and I’ve slowly dug myself out and the only payment I currently have is my car... (inset happy dance)     

 

I was excited to start a new woman’s bible study of 1 Peter with the women at Grace Community Church…..

 

1 Peter 1:8, “and though you have not seen him, you love him, and though you do not see him now, but believe in him, you greatly rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory”. 

So not Worthy !!!!!

I’ve been working on a post for a while, I always try to figure out what path to take with a post.  I always pray because above all I want my words to do nothing short of glorify GOD.  A great bible study in 2 Timothy and an awesome morning drive this morning and jamming to Michael W. Smith provided inspiration.

 

So, what has been happening in Jeremy World, including the crazy cat Mollie well we added a Marley, an even more, extreme crazy cat.  Jeremy has been uneventful healthy, no sickness, no UTI and I’m so praising GOD for this.  We are gearing up for his graduation in May.

 

Life did get crazy but hey that is how we roll.  Mollie ended up getting a rare fungal disease and she can’t tolerate the treatment we tried 2 different times.  Mollie will eventually pass away or I will have to make the decision to put her to sleep and it’s heartbreaking.  I thought well maybe get another cat to make that transition easier for Jeremy, so I started a semi- not sure search for calico cats and up popped 1.  This cat’s markings are total opposite of Mollie.  I went to meet her, long story short filled out all the paperwork, paid my fee and while I was there this other lady came in to adopt her.  I honestly to be truthful at that point felt any day Mollie was going to pass away or I was going to have to put her to sleep, she was just that bad.  I brought the new cat home on January 31 and we named her Marley.  So, we currently have Mollie & Marley and yes, it’s confusing but Jeremy can say Mar Mar and it’s been a good thing for him, he laughs at her like he did Mollie.  Marley is still a little scared, except with me I am her best friend ever, but she is warming up to everyone else, make good progress in a month and is starting to sleep & be around Jeremy some.  Marley is very energetic, funny, full of life, and very expressive loud.  Marley has long legs & body, and her paws are big so I’m expecting she will be a good size cat.  Marley seems very content with her new home.

 

Then “skunk Party 2020” yep early one morning getting ready for work, Jeremy getting ready for school I hear a sound under my house and then a smell that will make you gag.  I walk into the living room and it was BAD.  I had to hire a company and they trapped 4 skunks that apparently had taken up resident, but of course why wouldn’t they because they knocked my duct work loose, so they had heat and a nice little pad.  However, the duct work looked like a war zone.  The area is boarded up and duct work has been repaired,

 

I made a commitment at the 1^st of the year that I was going to attend a women’s bible study on Tuesday nights @ Grace Community church, and it has been a NEED in my life.  We are studying through 2 Timothy.  I enjoy getting to know all the woman, church members and all my new friends.  It has all been so good, to keep my mind sharp for GOD, study the word, be in the word, share the word.

 

This morning a reflection on how much I don’t understand about life, my life, why life turned out like it did.  I’m graciously grateful that GOD is Sovereign over us and that he washed away my sins.  My personal scars, battles, wars, whatever I may call them are not even in the same hemisphere of what Christ endured on the cross, for me, the spotless, righteous lamb of GOD who came to earth and lived a perfect, sinless life yet died as he did.  This is not because of me, I’m not worthy, will never be and deserve nothing more than hell.  I get impatient with how I feel things should be and I must confess that sin to GOD.  GOD the almighty, perfect, all knowing, and I want to tell him what is best for my life.  I stand before GOD guilty, nothing more I can say but Guilty, but his mercy crashed in like the waves and all my sins are washed away, he took them all, he took them all, without a trace and because of that I stand free, with every stain, forever washed away.  Spotless, whiter than snow, your blood, Christ blood covers me and I’m whole.  I’m graciously grateful.